HE who Saves Me

When I was a teenager, I wanted to be away from home as far as possible. “Home” couldn’t give me peace. It wasn’t because I had bad parents. It just that…my parents seemed like, they were never happy with each other. Even now, I couldn’t recall a single memory of them smiling or laughing together. I felt suffocated. That’s why, I studied hard with the hope that I would be awarded a scholarship which will enable me to study somewhere, anywhere but near home. Of course my parents wanted me to do well in school, but they didn’t know the motivation ย behind it was not exactly because I wanted to please them. I was just being a selfish bra**.

By the way…I want to continue my life story so badly like..right now (because I am eager to share how I changed from being a bra**y girl to a better person ๐Ÿ™‚ )..but actually before I do that..I think I will continue that story in other post…today what I really want to share, is about what happened today.

I have a friend who really is now going through a hard time. What is happening to her right now, is not that much different from what happened to me in the past, the reason why I am reminded of my struggling + rebellious years.

I am no longer bitter or sad about the past but one thing for sure is that, I am still grateful & thankful. ๐Ÿ™‚

My friend is going through a depression and clawing through the ground to find some peace and solace. I really want to comfort her so I told her about the various things that I did to come out from depression. The things that I did as I told her were; adopting a pet , listening to gospel song, reading self-help books, emptying my heart out by continuously writing in a journal, daily bread reading, taking up a hobby:knitting & finally (of course there were plenty…), but because she didn’t seem to receive those mentioned things well…I told her the only thing that she MUST hear and MUST believe and DO which is to PRAY and become CLOSER to GOD.

You know what..I didn’t cry when I told her about my struggling years, but tears were welling up in my eyes when I remember that God was and is the one who SAVED me. So, no matter what I shared with her today, I hope she believed me when I said if she wants to be released from “depression”..she should seek God with all her strengths. ๐Ÿ™‚

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze

(Isaiah 43:2)


How I Overcome Work-related Stress

I think working is fun..or it should be fun. However, after years of working, I realized, working can put a lot of pressure on you. I have seen many of my colleagues (mostly seniors) became complacent. There are many reasons that caused this complacency. If I could point out one of the many reasons, I think ‘lack of appreciation’ should be the first one on the list. ๐Ÿ™‚

I too have went through that stage of complacency. Because of so many things that going through my head, I couldn’t really put my whole heart into giving my best in my works. I really struggled very hard to be a good employee. Among those many reasons, the one thing that I really couldn’t stop thinking was working under my superior. Let just say…me and her.. personality wise don’t go along well together. ๐Ÿ™‚ It really drove me crazy.


Reinventing Yourself by Mario Alonso Puig

However, things gradually turned around after I changed my whole point of view and realign my goals and priority. This one quote from Mario Alonso Puig in his book Reinventing Yourself jumped off the page and directly spoke to me:-

Serenity is the capacity to keep your attention on what is a priority for you despite the difficult circumstances

~ Mario Alonso Puig

That was my first start of realization on looking for the priority in my life.

You see..I realized that the reason why I became a veterinarian was and is because I love animals and not because I want to please some people. I also realized that in this life, somebody can always be my master but the one that I am really serving is my one and only LORD.

Amazingly…those thoughts, are the keys that helpย me to let go of my inner struggle and what makes me a happy employee. ๐Ÿ™‚

Maybe one day that so called feeling of unappreciated will find its way to my mind and bothers me, but for now… I am just a happy woman who is grateful that she can still serves happily.

That quote that helped me has now “permanently” displayed on my office wall to keeps reminding me of my priority.